When you start to grow it can be scary.
Some will support you on your journey and some won't. I've been very lucky in that respect. But along the way I have met more amazing people who not only are aligned with your kind of 'woo', but who also understand the process of transforming yourself. Constantly growing, stretching... always testing your boundaries, and then going beyond them. It is quite exhilarating really. So much so, that it becomes addictive. You keep asking yourself 'What next?' (As someone kindly reminded me today).
I could never really put my finger on it. It's not about being restless, or unhappy with your current 'lot'. It's just that it tickles your sense of adventure and double-dares you to step over that line, like a bully who's on the side taunting you and blowing raspberries at you, always thinking (hoping) that you're not brave enough to break that invisible barrier that keeps you apart. Until one day, he gets the fright of his life when you decide that being kept trapped - not able to move forward - is far worse than anything he can do to you. And the best thing is... once one has stepped across this imaginary line, he'll probably tuck tail and run! So, after all this time, you realise there was nothing to be afraid of after all.
Well, in life, your Ego is that bully. It suppresses you all the time under the guise of keeping you safe! Lately I have been telling that bully to 'sod off'! And it's had some pretty amazing results. I still have moments where said 'bully' comes out to play, but it's getting rarer and rarer, and the result of this is nothing short of magical!
Now that I am reaching the zenith of the current growth curve, I look back at what I have achieved so far, honour it, and then look forward to the future, ne'er to look back.
It's time to FLY!